It's two in the morning and all I want to do is get out, go for a walk, find fresh air.  I want to clear my head, try to make sense of what I am feeling.  But I'm not feeling anything;  I am numb and empty.  And my body is too weak to go anywhere. ... Continue Reading →


I opened up this file and had a strong feeling of how I wanted to process the image.  At the time, I didn't know why, just that it would be a lot of work and concentration for my shaky fingers and foggy brain.  As I worked away, slowly rubbing away the colour from the figure... Continue Reading →

Dark Night

drop drop go the tears in the lonely night when all are asleep     tick tick goes the clock in the pixelated night never-ending     clunk clunk goes the meter in the clamorous night no silence, no peace     flash flash goes a light in the overwhelming night nuisance not beacon  ... Continue Reading →

A Daily Photo

I want to be inspired.  I want to create. Then life gets in the way. I decided a couple of weeks ago, when things were momentarily feeling a little brighter, easier, better, that I'd love to do a photo-a-day project.  I love the idea of the challenge and the dedication that it would require.  I... Continue Reading →

Life is a Seesaw

Looking back, I'm not entirely sure if I ever really enjoyed the seesaw; it was probably the biggest 'thrill' ride of the playground (those rusty, heavy roundabouts required a strong and enthusiastic being to go anything faster than a revolving display unit) but I've never been one for thrills.  (Or frills, for that matter).  There... Continue Reading →

October’s Me

I am lost and lonely I wonder where the future will be I hear hearts breaking I see bitter tears I want peace and comfort I am lost and lonely I pretend that everything's OK I feel overwhelmed by it all I touch in a world of darkness I worry about everything I cry all... Continue Reading →

Grateful for the Fire

Coping strategies.  There’s something inherently wrong with that expression.  Strategy, well, you need a clear head and a good idea of what the playing field is for that.  Coping, well, that implies a little too strongly successful management.  But the reality is that coping is just another word for surviving.  We bury our heads in... Continue Reading →

Working Out

I’m not entirely convinced that ‘working out’ has the right connotation.  It’s a fairly positive term, indicating a deliberate choice to develop something through to resolution, that is to say, a successful outcome. Working out does, of course, have other meanings.  In this modern age it is perhaps most often used as an exercise term. ... Continue Reading →

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